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There are many things I wish I can just remove from my life right now. There are many things I want to change. The way he seems to always make me a problem. The way she takes me for granted. The way they treat me. This stupid scratch that'll probably bleed in a while that I got when I plugged this. This ridiculous head and stomach ache. The unbelievable confusion, hurt and denial.

Anyway, ever wondered what names you'd want for kids? I was talking to somebody and this topic came up, and I got to thinking. :)) Since my name is Princess, I wanted to name girls Czarina, Empress and other royal titles. :P I found Duchess, and even Imperatrix/Imperatrice/Emperatriz along with Kaiserin and Tsarina. Haha. They sound cute. Shallow. Oh well. Sorry, I was just amused. Oh well.

P*sigh*. Hayy.

**I told my mom that I didn't want to go to prom. But she told me to go, so she can dress me up and try to make me pretty. But that's not even possible. I guess that's what moms are supposed to do, try to make you feel better about yourself when everyone pushes you down.

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I spent my morning today in Ateneo, boy-watching. :> And by boy-watching, I mean little boys who are getting their first communion. :)) Haha. My brother just got his first communion that's why my dad went home. But he just left for the airport. Aww. Anyway. MALAPIT NA CHRISTMAS BREAKKKKKK! :)))))) Excited. :))

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I just wanted to post some lyrics. :P

"Naaalala mo pa ba nung tayo'y magkasama pa
Iyong sinabi't pinangako na nalimot mo na siya
At kahit naglaho ka na muling sumama sa kanya
Sa aking puso ay ikaw pa rin, ikaw pa rin"

"Nothin' feels right when Im not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos
Takin them off 'cos I feel a fool
Tryna dress up when I'm missin' you"

"Don't look at me that way I see it in your eyes
Don't worry about me I've been fine
I'm not gonna lie I've been a mess since you left
And every time I see you it gets more and more intense"

Hayy. I need to cut my hair. But I still want it long. :)) Life's weird.

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I just finsihed my mom's gift. Since I gave my dad a painting for his birthday (since I'm still not finished with the big canvas :P), I'm giving my mom a drawing (since I don't have much time). I arrived home at 1 something but I just wasted my time thinking. I can't even say those thoughts would be useful to me in any way. Hayy.. 4 weeks to go. Then all this would be over, for a while. Oh well.

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Thank you beloved friend, I feel dearly betrayed. Of all the people, who knew.

And you, do you really think that third time's the charm? Did you have to repeat what you did again and again? Too bad though cause we seem to believe in different things. I believe in three strikes and you're out. You told me many times before that you were trying to change and that you weren't going to do things that caused trouble last time. But here you are again doing those things as if nothing ever happened. Looks like all those words meant nothing. And, guess what? I'm so full of it. I'm so mad. Yay. So much for trying to change. You just love making me angry, don't you? Well, thanks to you, my already damaged trust for you just went down the drain. Happy?

Out of all the people, aren't you supposed to be the one who should know how I hate being told one thing and seeing something else? But you keep on telling me things and doing something else. You enjoy seeing me like this, don't you? Thanks, friend.

They were right when they said loving someone is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting them not to. I guess I just love the wrong people. Too bad, trust doesn't mean anything to you. I guess I'm just a bad judge for character.

Some kind of friend you are, doing things behind my back and even thinking I'd be happy. And I thought I was a good friend for supporting you and trying to protect you. I guess I'm not, then. Or am I just the person who you'd come to just when everyone leaves you behind. After all those times I thought you'd do the same for me. Maybe I was the only one thinking that.

Thanks again for hurting me and letting me fall. I'll just have to remember next time that I won't get any help from you. Especially now that I'm just in the background, the person you'd come to when all your other friends go to their own friends. Wow. You're really nice.


Thank you for misunderstanding everything about me. For thinking that what you like is what I also like. For making decisions for me that you should know would hurt me in the long run. For always being there for someone else and never for me. For being the one I always had to look for but never did once for me. For enjoying hiding behind my back while I took in every single problem you had to free you from them. For just being something I didn't expect. Thanky you for taking me for granted.

You two leave the biggest holes in my heart.

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I'm tired. :| And not really in the mood to post, again. It's raining, so it's cold. I like it. Anyway, since I don't have much to write anyway, here's the lyrics to the song Decode by Paramore. It's also my blog music right now. Enjoy.

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
I can't win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
When I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood,
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own
On my own ("I'm screaming I love you so")
On my own (My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
When I use to know you so well, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools of ourselves

Yeah
How did we get here?
When I use to know you so well, yeah yeah
How did we get here?
Well, I use to know you so well

I think I know
I think I know
There is something I see in you
It might kill me I want it to be true

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Actually, the title's contradicting what I'm feeling right now. I'm coughing and I don't want more of it. Haha. I just realized I haven't posted for a long while, sooo, I'm posting. :P I got my card today, my mom and brother are leaving later to go to my dad because it's his birthday on Monday. I think my bro's already getting ready to go to the airport. Anyway, since I have classes on Monday, I can't go with them. : But I'm actually looking forward for the 5-day weekend. Know what, our weeks should always be like that. 2 weekdays and 5 weekends. :)) I'll continue this post later, oh well. Bye. :)

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